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‘Rust’ director skipped watching Alec Baldwin’s reality show: ‘Was busy hitting myself in the face with a frying pan’

“Rust” director Joel Souza was not compelled to tune into Alec Baldwin’s new reality TV show. 

Souza, 51, spoke about Baldwin and the series in a new interview with The Guardian published Monday.

“Rust” arrives in theaters on Friday, three and a half years after Souza and cinematographer Halyna Hutchins were shot when a prop gun held by Baldwin, who stars in the film, accidentally went off during a rehearsal. Hutchins died from her injuries. She was 42. 

“The Baldwins” — which follows Alec, 67, his wife Hilaria, 41, and their seven children — debuted February 23 on TLC.

Alec Baldwin on "The Baldwins."
“Rust” director Joel Souza was not compelled to tune into Alec Baldwin’s new reality TV show.  TLC
Film director Joel Souza is seen in this undated handout photo obtained by Reuters on October 22, 2021.
Souza, 51, spoke about Baldwin and the series in a new interview with The Guardian published Monday. via REUTERS

“I didn’t watch ‘The Baldwins.’ I think I was busy hitting myself in the face with a frying pan that night,” Souza said of the show’s premiere night.

The filmmaker previously said of Baldwin, “We’re not friends. We’re not enemies. There’s no relationship.”

Baldwin and Hilaria both discussed the “Rust” shooting and its aftermath on their TLC series.  

“This has been just surreal,” the “Crescent City” star told his wife in the show’s first episode. “I mean, I can’t even believe that we’re going through this, and I always feel more in pain about you than me, because I think to myself, well, you know, I’m going to try to my best to just get through it, and I think what it’s done to you and how much it’s hurt you and everything.”

Director of Photography Halyna Hutchins was killed and director Joel Souza was injured on set while filming the movie "Rust" in Santa Fe, New Mexico, on October 21, 2021. The film's star and producer Alec Baldwin discharged a prop firearm that misfired while loaded with blanks, according to the Hollywood Reporter. Hutchins and Souza were transported to a local hospital, where Hutchins was pronounced dead and Souza remains in critical condition. PARK CITY, UT - JANUARY 28:  Halyna Hutchins attends the SAGindie Sundance Filmmakers Reception at Cafe Terigo on January 28, 2019 in Park City, Utah.
“Rust” arrives in theaters on Friday, three and a half years after Souza, 51, and cinematographer Halyna Hutchins were shot when a prop gun held by Baldwin, who stars in the film, accidentally went off during a rehearsal. Hutchins died from her injuries. She was 42.  Getty Images for SAGindie
This handout image courtesy of Santa Fe County Sheriff's Office released April 25, 2022 and part of the investigative files, shows actor Alec Baldwin being processed after the death of cinematographer Halyna Hutchins at the Bonanza Creek Ranch in Santa Fe, New Mexico, October 21, 2021.
Baldwin and his wife Hilaria both discussed the “Rust” shooting and its aftermath on their TLC series.   Santa Fe County Sheriff’s Office/AFP via Getty Images
oel Souza attends the Crown Vic screening at Village East Cinema in New York City.
“I think I was busy hitting myself in the face with a frying pan that night,” Souza said of the premiere night of “The Baldwins.” ZUMA24.com

Baldwin reflected further on life after the “Rust” shooting in one of the episode’s confessional interviews. 

“This past year was just terrible,” he admitted. “There were times I’d lay in bed. I’d go, ‘Wow, my kids. I can’t get up.’ That’s not like me. I’m not like that at all, not in any way am I like that. Never.”

Referring to how her husband’s mood changed after he was charged with involuntary manslaughter in connection with the shooting, Hilaria said, “Everyone who is close to Alec has seen his mental health decline.” 

Alec Baldwin on "The Baldwins."
“This past year was just terrible,” Baldwin admitted on his reality show. “There were times I’d lay in bed. I’d go, ‘Wow, my kids. I can’t get up.’ That’s not like me. I’m not like that at all, not in any way am I like that. Never.” TLC
Inside Alec and Hilaria Baldwin's NYC apartment at Devonshire Place 28 East 10th from a screenshots from "The Baldwins."
Referring to how her husband’s mood changed after he was charged with involuntary manslaughter in connection with the shooting, Hilaria said, “Everyone who is close to Alec has seen his mental health decline.”  TLC

She also revealed that the star’s OCD got worse. 

“He was diagnosed with PTSD, and he says in his darkest moments, ‘If an accident had to have happened this day, why am I still here? Why couldn’t it have been me?’” Hilaria recalled.

Baldwin’s manslaughter case was dismissed by a judge in December after his attorneys argued that the prosecutor and law enforcement concealed evidence about the source of the live round that killed Hutchins in 2021.

The armorer on “Rust” — Hannah Gutierrez-Reed, 28 — was convicted of involuntary manslaughter and sentenced to 18 months in prison. The film’s first assistant director, David Halls pled guilty to the charge of negligent use of a deadly weapon last March. He was sentenced to six months of probation.