“I was really good at being in treatment and had no idea what this new normal was. I had no idea what it meant to live life again. For years, I had concentrated only on not dying. Now, I was scared, waiting to hear the words “Your cancer is back” for a fourth time. I couldn’t imagine a life without cancer, let alone know how to live it.
Don’t get me wrong, I was relieved to hear that I was prepared to go back to living life again. But this time, I wasn’t celebrating. There was no bell to ring, no balloons, no acknowledgment. I think no one wanted to trust that it was actually happening.
So I did what so many of us do. I Googled “Cancer treatment ended, now what?” I expected or at least hoped to find answers, but there really weren’t any. I was left confused, angry, and overwhelmed with what to do. At almost 35 years old, I was post-menopausal, 30+ lbs overweight from the cancer drugs, and just tired. There were no answers to what I was feeling or how to stop feeling those feelings.”
😍 what a blessing 🙏🏻 keep going ✨