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“I was really good at being in treatment and had no idea what this new normal wa…

“I was really good at being in treatment and had no idea what this new normal was. I had no idea what it meant to live life again. For years, I had concentrated only on not dying. Now, I was scared, waiting to hear the words “Your cancer is back” for a fourth time. I couldn’t imagine a life without cancer, let alone know how to live it.

Don’t get me wrong, I was relieved to hear that I was prepared to go back to living life again. But this time, I wasn’t celebrating. There was no bell to ring, no balloons, no acknowledgment. I think no one wanted to trust that it was actually happening.

So I did what so many of us do. I Googled “Cancer treatment ended, now what?” I expected or at least hoped to find answers, but there really weren’t any. I was left confused, angry, and overwhelmed with what to do. At almost 35 years old, I was post-menopausal, 30+ lbs overweight from the cancer drugs, and just tired. There were no answers to what I was feeling or how to stop feeling those feelings.”

😍 what a blessing 🙏🏻 keep going ✨