i (31f) keep getting texts from my downstairs neighbor (40-50f) and theyβre stressing me the hell out.
i swear iβm not usually a crappy person, but my moods have been SWINGING recently and my home is supposed to be my safe space and it hasnβt been lately (not completely related to neighbor):
landlords daughter (downstairs neighbor) hasnβt really blown up my phone so much before this. i think it started because she felt guilty about not doing a pizza and movie night (which i was totally fine with cuz iβve never hung out with them like that). plus my depression was really starting to come in like a wave a few days before. idk i donβt really like her being in my business and like to have my privacy but she thinks of us as friends and gets to be kinda nosy, ig sheβs given me cat toys and old cat beds and a ride home from the hospital, but iβm particular on friends and she rubs me the wrong way sometimes. i mean iβm friendly with her since sheβs my downstairs neighbor and my landlords daughter but idrk her like that. i like my landlord, she asks if i want food sometimes and helps me a ton with rent issues, but her daughter is a frustrating person sometimes. i tried to go down and talk to her and her roommate on their porch while i was having a panic attack (thought it might be a heart attack or lead to one and wanted to be around someone in case) and she talked over me and made it about her and then left to go inside and told her roommate she had 10 minutes to come inside to watch a movie (whatever ig).
i started a new shift in may where iβm up around 2am and leave around 3:30 and i havenβt heard anything about the noise until these messages. this past week or two sheβs been texting me every day about one thing or another. her roommate usually takes out my garbage with theirs and i usually bring them in (usually unspoken) so her telling me she took them out just seemed out of the ordinary, like a way to get me to respond with a thank you because i wasnβt really responsive before and most of her texts come off that way like she just wants a response no matter what itβs about. (not saying i shouldnβt say thank you, it was just odd as itβs never been needed to be said before). and ngl the message really pissed me off in the moment along the message after, like WE HAVENβT DONE THIS KIND OF ACKNOWLEDGEMENT BEFORE AND I REALLY DONβT CARE IF YOU TOOK THEM OUT OR NOT. maybe itβs the tism looking for pattern recognition in my depressive state, but iβve been seriously crashing out hard the past week (unrelated (sort of)).
idk maybe iβm just a dick rn or maybe iβm just hyper vigilant but iβm just so drained on top of being the most stressed out iβve ever been in my life. i just need space and room to breath without feeling like iβm under a microscope.
idk if i explained my brain properly or what, but i really just needed to vent. iβm sure iβll feel like garbage later about how iβve been responding/not responding to her, i just started therapy and im really trying, itβs just really hard rn
